The theme was Japanese and the steamboat 'liaos' were all Japanese and mysterious. We had triangle rice-cake cooking fishcakes, weird dog-food looking tubal thingy and stuffs with fancy names like oden, dashi, daigon (not to be mistaken for Bygon insecticide) and shiitake mushrooms. The steamboat was surprisingly light-tasting and we stuff ourselves silly with udon and instant mee thrown into the steamboat for starch.
I informed everyone that I will be leaving Singapore for the land down under soon and I was so touched when Lisa shed a few tears. I am so loved! Then we tried to shift the topic to a more cheerful one and soon we were horsing around laughing at each other for the silly antics we were in the last time Lisa and Michelle came to visit me when I was in Brisbane. Ah...the sweet memories.
We spent the rest of the night watching Tab TV and the America's Next Top Models and criticising everyone on TV, from the way Evelyn Tan host the show to the rutheless way girls were exposed and criticised on TV. We even learnt how to hide our body flaws the models way. We ended up taking lotsa Polaraid pictures and throwing catty remarks about each other's bodies and how we should be hiding each flaws.
After my friends have left, Ernest and I discussed more in depth about my upcoming departure. We both agreed that this 3 months of separation might do us some good. He can concentrate fully in maximising his potential in work and showing his boss that he can shine, and I can throw myself shamelessly to work without worrying if I am neglecting Ernest the way I have been when I was in advertising. I added that I will be those 'damned, hardworking Asian who come to work the earliest and leave the latest' as I do not have friends or family or activites to occupy my evenings, but Ernest did warned me about putting myself apart from the rest and will be unable to integrate and make friends with the locals.
I am just cautious not to make friends who will make me sidetrack from what I set out to do when I give up me family and go to work in a foreign land in the first place. I of course hope to make friends and be integrated and fully enjoy myself, but deep down, I am fearful that I might miss my family and friends too much. I pray to God I have the strength everyday to shine.
Do I have the fear Ernest or me will be unfaithful? Of course. But back to the stark reality, if we meant to cheat on each other, there is no need for a overseas posting for either of us to stray. If we are that weak, we could have cheated on each other while we are in Singapore. We shouldn't worry. If God can provide food for the little sparrows who have no means or skills to find food, why should we even worry about the things that might not even happen? Food for thought yeah?
This post is pretty thought-invoking, even for me. Excuse me while I go and light some aroma candles, sit on the floor and ponder on these issues more.
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