Hey hey guys! I know, I know...I ought to be shot for not updating as frequently as I should since now I am so free and all. For those who are in the dark (which I am sure most of you are), I have just passed a dark patch of life from the last week or so. I suffered terribly from depression last week.
I know it is a big shock. You might even think I am making stuff up to gain sympathy. The truth is, I spent last week cut off from everyone else and stayed at home to cry and mope around. Yeah, I did nothing pretty much except to cry, and cry and called Ernest up at work to pester him and cried somemore. I am sure the poor guy thought I am going bonkers. I have also comtemplated the thought of slashing my wrists as compared to jumping down from 25th storey as per the mother withh 2 kids in tow. I was in my lowest spirits. I dunno why I was so depressed. I only know I am fat, worthless, untalented and unemployable.
Being jobless is really a disease. It eats up your mind and makes you think of depressing thoughts. If you are not careful, you might think of dying cos you think you are not worthy at all.
After a stint of relentless crying, Ernest had enough and came over to take me out to keep me company for a day. He took a day off and we went to the Lord of The Ring exhibition. It helped me alot. I stopped crying and stopped my sucidal thoughts. But I still feel depress from time to time and I dun see I can share this with anyone face to face, with the exception of me just penning what has just happened to me online. I dunno wat else to add except I hope I can get out of being depress soon, or else, I might really go mad. Do keep me in your prayers. Thank you.
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